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December 4, 2005
Almost First Birthday: Reflections
As I put Sophie to bed tonight I was thinking about her first birthday tomorrow and reflecting on the last year.
I remember the many late night feedings and how she was up every two hours for the first month or so. I wasn't thinking of how tired I was or how happy I am that those times are gone but instead, I was grieving in a way for those quiet close times that I got to spend with her. Just rocking her in her room and feeding her. It was so sweet being that close to her and watching her sleep.
I couldn't wait to find out what she was going to be like and got so excited at any sign of a personality during those first few months. I love who she has become. But I miss and cherish that little baby who came out just as beautiful and quiet, who only worried about food, sleep and diapering. I honestly can't believe that it has been a year. My only regret that I have is losing some time with her unnecessarily to work. All the screaming fits and waking in the middle of the night and walks up and down the stairs are little gems that I think of now and cry to know that they are gone. I am so grateful I was able to spend that time with her.
She is a wonderful creature. She's funny and loud, serious and stubborn and my favorite, snuggly. Most of all, she has surprised me with who she is becoming. I can't imagine wanting her to be any other way.
Happy almost First Birthday my baby girl. I love you.
Posted by Brandie at December 4, 2005 9:38 PM